A letter to Cupid baby

To baby cupid:
You give me a very hard test
But I am so blur
I don't know what you want to test?
You want to test how much I can sacrifice to a person?
You want to test how much I can like or even love a person?
I have no idea what to do
I used to believe that I ever love someone deep from heart
But this time,I would like to say that thank you for giving me the chances to meet him in my life
He is just perfect to me

But do you know that, you give me the chances to fall in love with someone which not belong to me is really suffering
I am struggling in this relationship
I would like to withdraw out from this wrong relationship
But when the time I force myself to do so, I know the more I step into it
I know there is only two ways to choose
One is give up, another one is carry on
But if I give up, I don't even have the chance to have and I might lose him
But if I carry on, it will either hurt myself or get the happiness
It seems like gambling

Can you please stop torturing me?
Is enough already!
I am really cannot bear it already
I am so helpless T^T